Be a light
Hey everybody! Something that has Jesus has been so prominently speaking into my life over this last year has been the subject of the light surrounding situations within this world. Last November I packed my car full of my personal belongings, said many tearful goodbyes to my family and friends, and traveled across the states to begin a new adventure as a travel nurse to work with the pediatric population who have experienced trauma, abuse, and mental problems in their lifetime. Traveling the world has been a dream of mine since I was a little girl. When it was time for it to become a reality, many different types of fears began to settle in. Traveling, for me, meant chasing my dreams, but in a lot of ways, I was also running away from past hurts. While I was looking for adventure and new memories, I was also looking for some answers deep within my soul as well. I hope that as my blogs continue over the weeks I can unpack bits of my testimony here and there and share those questions and answers that I have found with you all, but for now, I want to start with my first adventures with traveling to Yakima, WA.
Something that jumped out to me very quickly about traveling that I had not been expecting was the loneliness that came with it. I had been so excited for the adventure that I hadn’t quite prepared for the hardships of the journey. For the first couple of months on my first assignment, I spent a lot of my time going on long hikes in the mountains with my dog, Sully, having some intense conversations with the Lord. Had I made a mistake? Why did I feel so alone? What was I even searching for anyways? I begged for answers to some of these questions. While I weltered in the misery of my loneliness, I didn’t realize until much later that I was missing the many blessings that the Lord was sprinkling around me. He wasn’t shouting the answers to my prayers. He was tenderly whispering them to me. I just needed to listen.
One of the hardest parts about this first assignment was spending the holidays away from my family. I was actually eager to be working so I wouldn’t have to be alone. On Christmas, a nurse that usually worked the day shift, stopped by during my night shift, and gave me a plate full of home cooked food. Even though I told her thank you multiple times, I don’t think she will ever know how much that simple act of kindness meant to me. Her act of kindness opened my eyes. I realized that, though I was lonely and far away from all things familiar, I was extremely fortunate to work with the nurses I did and to have met them. They were truly kind and amazing people, and as the months went on, I couldn’t imagine going through life not knowing them. Small acts of kindness continued. Kids at work wrote me letters. Co-workers brought me coffee or invited me to do things outside of work. On my last night before moving to my next assignment, all the nurses and even one of the doctors came together and took me out to dinner and wrote me a card full of kind affirmations that made my heart swell!
The thing is, I don’t think any of these people thought they were doing big deeds. They were just being kind and good human beings. But in my life, at that time, they were casting rays of sunshine onto all the areas where fear had made shadows of darkness. Not only did my co-workers shine light into my light during this assignment, but several friends and family members were intentional about flying out to see me as well. They used their own finances and set aside their own personal time to be intentional about making memories with me in a new, foreign place. I clung onto those dates when I knew people were coming! They got me through my low moments and made me appreciate all the opportunities that being a traveling nurse were bringing to me.
Be a light.
I challenge whoever is reading this to go out of your way and do 5 very small acts of kindness to random people that you would not normally reach out to. You never know when your small act of kindness is actually the Lord whispering the answer to somebody’s long awaited prayer. The people in this world are too beautiful to live in this world that is too dark. Be a light. Be a bright one. After all, “No one after lighting a lamp covers it with a jar or puts it under a bed, but puts it on a stand, so that those who enter may see the light.” Luke 8:16